Growing Up.

Our good friend, Blake Savage was called to serve in the Chili, Concepcion mission today.

Slowly summer is drifting by and adulthood is commencing.
The moment I've anticipated is looking more and more uncertain
as I realize all that it entitles.

Saying goodbye to home as a place that I reside in
and saying hello to it as a place I visit.

Seeing boys off who have been so wonderful to me,
and remembering the hours spent talking late at night,
texting an unfinished story back and forth, and asking if they know what love is.

Perhaps, for myself, discovering that, "to die for love? what could be more glorious?"
is a real concept that still exists today
and maybe finding a boy who feels the same.

I suspect that life will be frustrating,
but magnificent and full of happiness
and the same old contradiction it's always been.

I'm expecting to see changes in myself,
and in others,
that I thought would never come.

And I know,
that no matter how hard I try,
things will never be the same.

And that's all right by me,
for life is a glorious story,
that I can't wait to have told.

Love always,


Katelin said...

Its so interesting! I have been graduate from HS for two years and am realizing this just now..I mean..I've always "known" its time to grow up..but it havent FELT it until recently and all of the things you've described are so real to makes me so sad.."no matter how hard I try I can't change it.."..especially that part about visiting home..Man..Life. Its awesome. And sad..all at the same time! Thanks for writing :)

Karli said...

Oh you used the quote!!! That made me happy. And I know what you mean. I'm still figuring it all out. I suppose that will just come with time though.

Becca Udall said...

This is how I feel too, Emma. So much change! I can't wait for next year! But everything will be different when we come back home..