14 Days of Love: Day 11

Today, I love....

Cherishing this moment of my life.

Sometimes, I get overburdened with the thought of what's ahead. I stand on the precipice of life with my childhood and home life on the sturdy ground behind me and the vast expanse and fall into real, adult life ahead of me. And it's scary. Look back too long and I miss the sunset on the other side of the gorge. Look ahead to much, and I fall flat on my face and miss the fleeting moments that await me on the edge. Looking forward opens up questions that I don't even want to consider, and choices that I have to make but am not ready to. When I do this, I just can't handle it, and I have to take a step back, and enjoy my life as it is right no- which isn't easy. I always am looking forward to something or wishing I could change something, but life, well, it's life, and I can't change it. So today, I have decided that I need to cherish and love every day that I have remaining on the precipice because eventually, I have to descend and start the walk up the other side of the gorge to the rest of my life. I'm going to cherish the moments I have with people that I'll have to leave behing in late August. I'm going to love and adore my family with more vigilance. I'm going to make this last bit of life the best it can be- without any fear... {ok, maybe a little still}. Today, I love cherishing these moments that combine into the wonderful life that I live, and love.

Love Always,
Ems

Paris and The Gap.

I should be asleep.
Like really...
But I decided to just give up on sleep for the week.

Anyway, I have the most fabulous thing to tell you!
Yesterday, I was talking to my very best friend, Zack.
Now, he is my best friend, and a wonderful guy and so I said, "Will you fake promise to take me to Paris?"
He responded, "I fake promise to take you to the city of love."
And I said, "And I promise it will be the best trip of your life."

So I'm going to Paris.
Someday.
With a fake promise.
Because in my world,
fake promises do come true.

So thank you, Zack,
for making my dreams come true.
Even if you were just kidding.


And here's another fabulous thing:
a compliment from Denton Hatch yesterday directed to me.
It went something like this....

Emma, you look like you just walked out of the Gap.

And my life was complete.

isn't life swell? :)

Love Always,
Ems

No One is Alone

I believe thinking you're alone is the worst feeling.

Everyone should have someone to turn to.

A hand to hold on to when times turn fatiguing, 

and a shoulder ready for the soppy tears that are sometimes about nothing.

Equally as bad, is the feeling of knowing a friend needs you, but you can't do anything and they won't admit it.

But the best feeling, is knowing that someone is there for you.

To know that they're offering their heart, and friendship-something that can so easily be broken-brings a certain fulfillment and indescribable joy.

And to extend that hand, and feel the grasp of someone needing you, brings humility and peace knowing you can change a life.

I believe we all can change lives. 

I believe smiles are contagious, and once you realize all the goodness in life, it is impossible to be disheartened.

The sun can bring the greatest happiness, and the moon and stars the greatest wonder.

Realizing that you're so small, but that you have so much potential, is a blessing that I believe everyone deserves to discover.

And a friend to help you see that,

is more precious than anything the world can give.

Love Always,

Ems

Sea Green, Sea Blue.

I miss winter just because I miss when I knew you best
I miss the typewriter in the basement
I miss making your room a mess
i miss not being misused

I miss it all, so I guess I lose

-Sea Green, Sea Blue- 

by Jaymay 

 

 

Sometimes, I feel free of everything

but other times I feel trapped, 

like I want to cry, but have no one to turn to.

But other times it's perfect,

and I love where I am.

The ups and downs, the inns and outs,

the frustrations and smiles, aren't wasted,

or so I hope. 

But until I know, 

I'll just keep passing by,

hoping something will go right. 

But for now, I wait,

and watch the sun set,

sighing, but joyful.

 

 

Love Always,

Ems 

 

Something is Wrong...

This picture reminds me of dreams..that's why it's here. :)

I seriously cannot go to sleep. I just don't want to and don't feel like it so I don't...WHAT IS WRONG?! I have no idea but it's a problem. Anyways, good news! Pictures are in place! yipee! And, I finally gave Mr. R his Christmas present! It's only been done since Thanksgiving...NBD. :) I made him a blanket and I do believe he loved it! :)

So, Would you like to hear how my day made me go, "Golly Gee, today is busy!" Of course you do! So I kinda went to bed at 2:30. NBD. Woke up at 10:30. NBD. Told ya, not diggin this...

Swept hcore and then organized the pantry- I think I want to be a professional organizer. How do I do that?

Went to Starbucks with Malgal. Good times catching up. :)

Made Mr. R's card

Went to the park with Mr. R where he opened his present and then we watched The Notebook, got invaded by a little Mexican family, then they left and then once the movie ended got invaded by some punk teenagers! Who do they think they are invading our park?! geesh...people. :) And acutally, they weren't punks at all. :) hehe.

Mr. R was excited to open his present. :)

He said, "Am I funny?" hahaha. Oh my.

Okay, so really it wasn't that busy...it's probably just the fact that I woke up at 10:30....

But I have some pictures from yesterday when Mr. R came over cause somehow he convinced me to sing at his family's New Years Eve party....I dunno why I am doing this for him. So he came over so we could pick out a song. :) We picked the Prayer after about 2 hours of trying to decide...we're terrible at deciding anything. :) hehe.

I was hiding behind my favorite piano music cause I didn't want my picture taken... :)

 

He was not happy cause I was taking his picture. :)

Yup! That's life right now. :) Maybe I should go to sleep before 2:30 tonight....sounds like a good idea. :)

Love Always,

Ems

p.s. I just switched to the new posting thing on blogger....holy schnikies, it makes it so much easier! Where have you been all my life?!

This just made me happy...I have no idea why. :)

Holes, Weddings & Rambelings

So, good or bad first?

hm... lets' go with the bad news bears first, then we can kick them out without a fear of them eating us. :) And anyways, this ends up happy. :)

So, do you even suddenly have like this terrible feeling that a huge hole has been made in your heart and it's never going to get better? I know it sounds stupid, and lame, and so stereotypical, but I seriously felt exactly like that today! Long, long, long story. So I felt like this, and it was terrible. And I was doing chemistry homework which probably didn't help....but that's super beside the point. So I wrapped up in a warm blanket and sat at my desk doing my homework trying not to cry, and talking to Mr. R. He finally got it all out of me on why I was feeling so terribly hurt and helped like.....five zillion times over, just like he always does!I felt like giving him my heart at that moment cause he seriously pretty much saved it from total and utter despair! See, I told you he's a life saver of a friend! p.s. I love this picture. :)

So onto the happiness, cause after my little sad episode, I sure am happy! Reasons?
#1 We're going to buy a Christmas Tree!

#2 This cute cute thing I found {here} which is now a favorite blog of mine! This is a proposal caught on {camera} film and it about made my heart die it was so cute! {I should proabably be more careful with that heart of mine....it seems to be in danger lots! haha}
#3 My Wedding song was on the radio today as I was driving around! it's now the song of the day! :) It's called Then by Brad Paisley. :) Find it {here} LOVE love love THAT SONG! It for sure will be the first dance at my wedding. :) It's sooooo cute! :)

#4 Today in english I had a scene from Pride&Prejudice stuck in my head! not.even.kidding. Funny thing is, it's the scene I dislike the most! Except I learned to love it from Mr. ACK because he taught me how very important it is to the story! I still kinda loath it though.... cause it has Caroline Bingley in it and I LOATH her!!!{loath.loath.loath}

#5 I stole this adorable wedding picture from facebook. I just thought it was soooo cute! GAH! I can't even handle it! Don't worry, I know the bride in the picture! I'm not that much of a stalker! Kay, maybe I am... but that's a different story. :)
#6 I just love thinking about weddings and getting married so it automatically makes me so so very happy thinking/seeing anything at all cute and related to getting married. I know, I need help. I've been told that only about a gagillion times, don't even worry.

#7 Winter Formal is still soooooo super close and I'm still sooooo excited! you don't even know. Mr. R and I will knock your socks off because we do so well at the picture scavenger hunt! :) plus, our pictures will be the best!

#8 There are officially only 18 days left in our countdown! Praise the sweet heavens above! :)

#9 I found this:hm.... can you say heart melting??? {once again with the heart...} I love this for two fold A. It's just soooo super cute B. I totally agree with it. You have no idea, it's the very best. :) and sooo edorable! And I love it when boys are adorable!

#10 I also found this which reminds me sooo very much of my very good friend, Ego Boy, cause he's seriously OBSESSED with pokemon. hahaha. Made me rofl.
and this one cause he loves pancakes....

And here is a picture list of things I'd much rather be doing right now and what I'm thinking. :)
I want to do this-->
but preferably not alone, with someone, cause then it's cute and romantic. :)
Have I ever mentioned that I'm pretty sure I need some help? Also, I'm now officially positive I have a very bad case of wanderlust. Oh well, I love it. :) And these quotes pretty much sum up my thoughts right now:

When love is not madness, it is not love.
-Pedro Calderon de la Barca


Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river.
-Malagasy Proverb


Do I love you because you're beautiful,
Or are you beautiful because I love you?
-Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II, Cinderella

Oh my, what is a girl to do??? :)
Love always,
Ems

this is happiness.

Holy cantolie... I'm soo soo soo soo so very happy right now! You don't even understand! Plus, I found some cute/funny pics on my favotire website. I'll share the love later. :)

So, onto my happiness. Mr. R. hm....can you say he probably wins the sweetest person alive award? Yup, he wins it. Even after the bad news about his back today, he's still so wonderful and kind to me and says THE cutest things ever! if this weren't the world wide web, I would post what he said, but since I kinda want it to be special still, I'm keeping it for myself, sorry, I'm selfish. :) But really, he's great, and ah! I just don't even know what more to say! And this is totally something he would say to me-->
Which makes me rofl major, but yet, is so cute and funny! And that's just how Mr. R is! It's fabulous! Want to know how he told me he likes me? He said, "Today it hit me like a semitruck...I really like you." Ya, not even kidding. It's so him and so funny! hehe.

Tomorrow is THE HOLY WAR! boyah! SOOOO excited! We're going to the game and we're going to freeze but it's all worth it to see the Cougs kick some Utes trash!!!! :) It'll be bomb {dot} comdizzle. :)

Do you ever have really funny things that people do that you just rofl and rofl and rofl about? It's kinda like this picture for meIf you don't understand. think upon it for a while, and it will come. Pretty much, I almost peed my pants when I saw it. :) They need an acronym for that.... they have one for rolling on the floor laughing, why not just peed my pants laughing? jpmpl? hm... doesn't quite work.... somebody help me come up with this new one! It'll be the best acronym yet! bahaha!
But Captin Momo and her family have been FB stalking me for a while and everything they do makes it roflmania for me! bahaha. Love them all so very much! Like if you even knew....you would rofl too!

So I'm just so happy I don't even know what to do with myself! Did I mention that winter formal is a week away? I didn't? oh let me do that, WINTER FORMAL IS A WEEK AWAY!!! And I'm soooooooooooooo excited! It's going to be the best thing...pretty much....ever. AH! Love it!

I'm going to go to sleep with the most pleasant dreams ever. :) I hope everyone's day has been amazing, I know mine was. :) Have a fabulous Saturday tomorrow and pleasant dreams! :)

Love Always,
Ems

{Thanksgiving}

YAY! I love the holidays! Where to begin with thankfulness?? Let's start at last night... :)

MONOPOLY+siblings=probably the most competitive thing since the world began. not.even.kidding. So... we started the game at about eight. I went to bed at about 2:20 cause I was dying I was so tired. My brothers....they stayed up till 3:45. By the end of the game, Josh had sacrificed himself, Caleb and I had become a corporation, Josh came back from the dead to take my spot, and Seth was still killing us!!!! HE HAD TWO MONOPOLIES!!!! We had the entire rest of the board! It was craziness, plain craziness. Not to mention the fact that we ate an entire bag of Twizzlers, a box of Dots, and a thing of Mac&Cheese. Ya, don't mess with Barton family monopoly games. Just another reason why I love my brothers. :)I'm thankful for cute little things like above....and just romantic cute things in general. They make my life all the better and happier. :) I'm especially thankful for super kind messages from people that make me smile to the ends of the Earth and back just because they're so cute and nice-waking up to those are the very very very best. :)

I'm grateful for these girls:
They've been my all to me forever and I love them to death. We've had the best of times and the worst of times. But I'm pretty sure that if we got back together for a night we'd be the same crazy friends we used to be. They've always been there for me and pretty much I think we taught each other everything we know. I really don't know where I'd be without them....probably some loner in the corner wearing ugly cloths and still wearing slickedback ponytails.... But really, I'm so thankful for everything they've done for me, I don't know what I'd do without them. And, I miss them. But I'm grateful for them.

I'm also grateful for these gorgeous girls:
So how we all came together is crazy and we really can't even remember how it happened. But they've made my high school transition so much better. Brought me up from super sad times. Given me advice in crazy situations and although I don't always follow their advice {...Lizzie...} I know they're always going to be there for me when I'm crying over something. Even though we've been having some weird times recently, I'm sure it's just a phase and Utah will mend everything. :) I really do love all these girls so crazy much, I can't even express it fully, they're just the best. end of story.

I'm grateful that my parents have made travel such an important part of growing up. Because then when I happen upon pictures like the above I can say, "I've been there! It was awesome!" I was so happy when I randomly found this picture cause I felt so cool having been there. I LOVE traveling. :)

I'm grateful for missing people. Which is weird...cause normally it's a bad thing. But I've decided that when you miss a person, it brings you closer to that person cause you're always thinking about them. And, it makes the reunion all the better. I'm also grateful for this cause there are so many different ways to miss a person. Sometimes you miss people who you see everyday. Sometimes you miss people you haven't seen in months. Sometimes you miss the way you used to know a person. Or you miss the way a person holds you and cares for you. Sometimes it's a combination of some of those, and sometimes it's none of them all, it's just more like a pit that you can't fix. However it is that you miss a person, I'm grateful for it, cause it makes you stronger as a person, and helps you realize all the blessings you've had because of that hole in your heart. I'm grateful for missing people.

I'm so grateful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. It's the most amazing thing in my life. Really, it's above everything. That's pretty much all I can say about cause I don't even know how else to put it. I'm glad to be Mormon! :)

There is so much else, but I think if I listed everything we'd both be here for about five years....cause I could go on and on about all that I'm thankful for. I just love life and everything that makes it beautiful and good. :) which is a lot of things. :) I hope everyone has an amazing Turkey Day, I'm so happy it's the holiday season. :) I'm grateful for all of YOU readers! Thanks! :)

Love Always,
Ems

It's {cold}

Official decision of the day: I'm so not good with the cold. We're up in Utah today and kinda, I'm dying cause it's super cold! Plus, there is nobody here to cuddle with since it's so cold and it creates a problem.... for me. :)

However, it's great cause I'm with my older brothers again! And I just love them tons. :)

And, I'm super excited cause winterformal is soon and I'm just so very excited to go with this crazy boy. :)

And it's going to be some CRAZY good times. :)

And tomorrow is Thanksgiving and who doesn't like that?! :) And we're going to the BYU vs. UofU game on Saturday where...we are going to freeze cause guess what? Oh ya! It's supposed to SNOW! Ya, like, I'm dying. But I'm also sooooo very excited. :)

And, there are only twenty0three days left. :) So if the days were hours, we'd have one hour less than a full day. :) Which really, in retrospec, isn't that long. BUt in realspec {totally just made that up} is FOREVER and I'm also kinda dying cause of the long long long time! I seem to be dying cause of a lot of things....probably that's a problem! :) Maybe I should stop doing that. :)

Well we're off to play some games....which is going to be crazy cause my family+games=CRAZY! Especially since we're playing Monopoly.... somebody might get hurt! but it'll be fun!

Love Always,

Ems

{sigh}

"A girl likes to be mixed up in love now and again, it gives her something to think about."

-Mr. Bennet, Jane Austen's Pride&Prejudice

Don't worry, this is probably the quote of my LIFE! I'm feeling especially romantic recently and I think my head is just up in the clouds dreaming. :) I do love it so very much....

It doesn't help when I have romantic things being throw at me left and right... It just makes me love it all so much more. :) It's just that it's troublesome cause sometimes I need to be reminded to do this...And it can cause problems, cause not doing that is the number one cause of death. :)

Can somebody please help me? Actually, no. I'm very content with life as it is. :)

Love Always,
Ems

p.s. This is just plain darn cute. :)

{thoughts}

Thinking right now that my list of "things to blog about" is growing but that I really just want to put down what I'm thinking right now....

And that is this:

I really love being held tight by somebody who cares about you, and then, having the smell of them on your cloths after they leave.... mmmhhh. :) Makes me love life to the extreme.

I'm also thinking that it's kinda sad when you don't understand why people suddenly disappear as though they hate you, especially when it's a group of people who you dearly care for...

Or... when you don't understand why things between certain people just can never be the same because if they were to be the same you'd fall back into that same old trap, which would be bad...unless you're that person's mother. haha. And you think this -->
but obviously they don't think that same way....

Or when you can't figure out how to help a friend in need... Remember the story of my life pic a few posts back? Yup, that's the worst. It's especially terrible when they won't tell you what's wrong but you know there is something bothering them.... And you think, "Can't we tell each other everything again?" And it in turn makes you feel like this -->
But at the same time don't cause you want to be best friends! And it's just makes you sad to think about how you foolishly thought you could still be best friends. Bad news bears I tell ya, bad news bears.

This is kinda a depressing post... I was just thinking all that... But now I'm thinking back to the first part of the post....and it's making me smile. Because it really is the very best, and it over-rules everything cause you know that person holding you close and who's smell lingers on you cares for you tons & tons. :) Did I mention I'm a hopeless romantic? Well, I am. That's why this -->

Makes my heart stop. :) I think I shall go watch it. NBD, it's only one a.m. :) It's worth it though! Off to my favorite imaginary place in the world. :)

Love Always,
Ems

p.s. I'm loving italics recently... if you didn't notice. :)

{thirty-one}

Thirty one. THirty One. THIrty ONe. THIRTY ONE! Thirty one days... that's all there is left... I love countdowns, fyi. And 31 is much much much closer than say... 65. Which is what it used to be, and I was DYING. I still am dying. But it's better knowing it's getting oh so much closer. :)


So new song of the day that I love! 'Angel' by Jack Johnson. :) OH SO CUTE! And love the black and white of this video! Plus, this song brings a smile to my face because some people are just so cute and wonderful like that. :) Look here--> {Angel}

So laughing moments came from this:And this:And this {which reminded me of my dear pops}:
Isn't that just the funniest thing ever! Another super good place to get a few {or like a bazillion} good laughs is {mylifeisaverage.com} Seriously, some of the greatest things ever that just make you rofl. like seriously rofl. Which is momo's fave thing, she's a huge rofl fan. :) hehe.

Something that made my heart melt today? Here:
And story of my life {hate when it happens}:And this is what I feel like doing cause life is so great right now:I especially love it when people are so understanding and caring that they give you things they really shouldn't. Seriously, some people are juts to amazing, it makes me wonder where they came from and why they are my friends. Cause I sure feel like I don't deserve them! I decided I'm going to be like the person behind {www.thingsweforget.blogspot.com} Cause I love the idea and think it can be my new RACKs. Which still are super hard to do. But hopefully this will help. :) I hope you had an terrific Tuesday! I know mine has been so wonderful and fabulous and ah, life is just so amazing sometimes!

Love Always,
Ems